As you all have probably noticed, I haven't been around much. I'm sorry for that. There is a reason behind it. I have spent much time debating on what to say to my blog readers and what not to say. I feel that I owe it to you all to explain my absence.
As you know last year I mentioned that I have a lot of stress. Well after some intense talking with my therapist we figured out the root of the problem. I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. My panic attacks come from fear of being touched. No I am not a germ-a-phobe, I just can not be touched other than a hand shack. This makes things difficult when I go into crowded places liked the mall or Wal-mart. I break out into a sweat the moment I set foot in places like them. I am constantly thinking that everyone will touch me. That brings on the panic attacks. I was even in the middle of a panic attack at Target, walked outside and got lost in the parking lot. Luckily I did find the car and sat down so I was able to calm myself. So being out in public is hard for me.
Now that I am aware of what's going on they have me on medicine to help with the attacks. Not everything is 100% foolproof . I have to go to therapy weekly,which is emotionally draining. I do calming breathing exercises that help. Another thing that has helped is dieting and exercising. I have lost 21 pounds in just a month. I have found that reading also helps. When I am riding on the bus or siting in a crowded waiting room, reading a book helps to distract me from what is going on. Plus doing a my breathing exercises along with it.
So why the absence? To help get myself where I need to be I have to devote 100% to getting better. That means I have step away from the blog temporary. I saddens me to do this but I know it is something I have to do. I spent a lot of time thinking about what to do. Should I take time of from it or not. I know that I need to. I can not give the authors the best that they deserve with my reviews if I so much going on in my personal life. Putting this out there is hard for me. I try to keep my personal life private. I felt that everyone who reads my blog deserves a reason as to why I have been and will be away.
I will keep you up to date on my progress. I will have a few reviews that I had scheduled post on future dates. Thank you everyone for being understanding and following my blog. Until next time. :)